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Broken, broken, broken..everything, everything

  • Oct. 31st, 2007 at 10:01 AM

So I'm pretty sure I have been deemed a horrible person. This morning when I got to school there was this man walking around handing out New Testaments. When he asked me if I wanted want, I politely told him no. I started to feel bad after wards. Didn't I just, in a way, turn down God? Well, the other part of my mind said, no, you didn't. You just didn't take it because you knew it would probably get shoved to the back of your car under the seat and lost forever. And probably get damaged, too. I really didn't want to take something I wouldn't read, something I knew I didn't really want. Is that terrible? Or is the fact that he's walking around our parking lot soliciting God what is wrong? I'm not sure. I just know that if I didn't write down those thoughts they were going to plague me all the way through the next hour while I was trying to do homework.

In other news, last night Jeremy talked to his dad's friend who owns apartments by their house..and he said that they're $475 a month. This, my friends, is a REALLY good price. He said the electricity bill is normally only 40 or so dollars. I'm going to call him when I get out of class to see what's he got. I'm really anxious to move now that my mom has brought up the plan to let our neighbor, whom I can't STAND, live with us for a while. She has two small daughters and they alone would drive me batty. But the neighbor.. oh she's something. I just don't think our trailer is big enough for THAT many people. It's comfy just the way it is. I hate knowing that I'm pretty much being thrown from the nest--even though she keeps saying, "You don't have to go, you don't have to go." The fact that she's probably going to get kicked off of the land we live on is putting even more pressure on me. Strangely enough, though, I'm not really worried. I'm handing over everything and just saying, what's going to happen will. I don't think God will put me through anything I can't handle.. (Strange that I say that when I wouldn't even take what that man was passing out, huh?) I'm really strange when it comes to religion. I don't even think we should have organized religion, but I seriously doubt that now is the time to go into that.

Exciting news: I just have FOUR classes to take and I'll be finished with school! Down side--two of those classes are in the spring, two are in the fall. But! I get the summer off, I'm pretty psyched about that. Some beach, some where, here I come!

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