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Ah, it feels good to be LJ'ing pretty regularly now.
Can someone tell me why people from my past always pop up at unexpected moments and expect me to forget everything they ever did.. and like them and talk to them? I don't understand this little phenomenon that happens upon me quite often. A few weeks ago an ex best friend tried talking to me after she did some very disgraceful things when our ex boyfriend died. Yes, I said our because while we were best friends she started dating him two days after he broke up with me. But you know what? That's not what bothered me. What bothered me was when he died she told me in a very, very ugly way. I swore never to speak to her again.. and I basically told her that.
A few weeks ago she tells me on Myspace that she's moving to Baton Rouge (with is about two hours from where I live) and that we should go party. I didn't even answer her back. Why bother? An ex-boyfriend this morning started telling me about his family problems. Hey, guess what guys? I'm not the Robyn from three years ago who forgives and forgets. I'm sorry, I can't do that anymore.
Sometimes I feel like a failure as a friend. One of my friends is having a pretty rough time.. but I can't find the words or means to console her anymore. I see the solution in my mind, clear as day--but you can't make someone do what they themselves don't feel is right. It's hard seeing someone like that, so amazing, so strong.. crumpling under all the pressures of life.. and realizing there's absolutely nothing you can do...
On the subject of friends. There's a girl I've been friends with since seriously 7th grade. Through high school we lost touch, but our senior year we started getting close again. Well, she met a guy. This guy is in no way shape or form the "perfect" guy. He screwed her over.. they broke up. She swore not to be with him again. Few months passed, she was with him again.. a few more months and they were engaged. And I stopped seeing her because he's the type of guy that keeps a girl from seeing her friends. Well, they're married now, and she isn't the person I used to know. She was always loud, outgoing and so friendly. Now she almost seems.. passive. She doesn't say much, she's just kinda like.. eh whatever.
How do people change THAT drastically for the worst?
And then, you know, there's always the friend that acts like they have your best interest at heart, but in reality they are just so jealous of you it's sickening. Hah.
I wanna make love in this club
Sadly enough, I think I'm obsessed with that song.
New Orleans bound in just 4 days!
I can't wait!!
- Location:computer desk
- Mood:
cheerful - Music:Make Love in This Club Usher
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time
Holdin' me tight
I've got a massive headache and I need to go get my glasses at Walmart but I'm being extremely lazy/almostdespressed to go do it.
Why do bad things come at you hard--but then the good times just slip between your fingers before you have time to soak in them?
Tonight me and Jeremy are supposed to go with Holly to go eat out. I haven't seen her in so long, I miss her.. a lot. However, I'm actually afraid Daddy won't come home and that I'll have to sit with Meagan until Momma gets back :/
Today I realized how I have the coolest/best/most incredible friends ever. Heidi texted me in the middle of class to tell me, "My teacher said moist haha." Now, I HATE that word with a passion [it's so disgusting sounding]. Anyway, this made me laugh so hard. I love it. I love my friends, I really really do.
[I just figured out that I can change the songs on my laptop by pressing the buttons at the top of it :DD that excites me way too much.]
To update on what happened yesterday--well nothing more really. He came home--they argued a lot. And now I'm not quite sure where things stand. I'm moving out if they split. I refuse to pick sides. And anyway--if it comes down to that, I think it's time for me to move on and out. I kind of want to go. To be free. I need to breathe on my own if that makes any kind of sense at all.
I need some more music. Lots more. I only have 20 songs to my nearly 600 on my old laptop :/ How lame.
- Location:bed
- Mood:
drained - Music:Bubbly--Colbie Caillat
It takes too long to get to Baton Rouge. When I have too much time on my hands.. I do stuff like that.
Wow. I've been busy. Very busy. Just doing everything you should be doing during the summer. Blah, lately I haven't been able to do all that much, but I don't feel like getting in to it. Let's just say: DRAMA.
So instead of ranting endlessly about the people I work with, family, and all that other silly stuff, let's make this a picture update!
( I finally gave in: Bennigans && Nitetown. )
Yesterday I went to Blue Bayou!
( Let's get wet! ;] )
And finally, some long awaited pictures of me and the boyfriend =]
( You make me feel at home no matter where we are )
Jeremy,
I love you, babe.
You make me feel as if I can make it through anything.
You're there.. from the highest of highs, to the very lowest of lows.
You don't judge me, you don't fault me.
You love me.
For the stupid little tantrums, for the loving kisses.
For the bad attitude, for the playful moments.
You love it all.
And I love you so much for it.
I can't wait til the day we have it all.
I can't wait til we can fall asleep every night together.
And wake up every morning to bed head, smelly breath and even morning wood [hahaha].
I want it all, the good and the bad.
I love yu.
- Location:bed
- Mood:
thoughtful - Music:fergie
I hate when people say their lives are horrible. I know I went through that stage, and sometimes I still gripe about the way things are going, but dude, I know when to stop. And I know that I really don't have it that bad. People are just irratating lately.
However, I do love my besties, Brooke.. and duh Jeremy :] They make me happy right on the inside. Oh yeh, and Kasey is pretty great too. I love having friends that I can seriously talk about ANYTHING with. I mean.. just plain gross things that you wouldn't talk about with anyone else. That's true friendship.
I feel nauseated, I just ate a ice cream Reeses' Pieces thing. Not smart. It feels like my stomach is turning inside out.
Ew. I miss Jeremy. I haven't really been able to spend time with him 'cause of work, school and fishing. He's at a touranment right now. Win some money, baby!
I took this picture a billion years ago. Just thought I'd show it off.
I need to start taking pictures again. I miss my picture stories.
- Mood:
discontent - Music:Save Me Unwritten Law
Saints v Eagles
HELL YES SAINTS WON.
This morning I thought I had so much to do.
My plans changed 10,000 times.
I ended up at Jeremy's even though Jeremy was going to work.
[They were having a fish fry.]
I went to Casey and Kristen's..stayed there for two hours.
Back to Jeremy's. Got in on the pool for the game.
Left to go to Pizza Shack to drop off fish to Jeremy and Holly with Heather, Kristen and Morgan.
Walmart called our names, so we ended up there looking at makeup and shampoo.
[While the best game ever was on, I just can't get into football.]
Then we end up at Goody's. I get this awesome shirt/headband/necklace/earrings.
On the way back, Kristen realized that Casey left with their car--and her bag with everything in it she needs is in there.
She freaks calls everyone--finds out she's at Rachels. Rachel lives 15 minutes from Jeremy's.
So we go back to his house--call Dawn and Mamie [Casey's friends] and we all pile back into my car [minus Morgan] and head off to the gas station.
We pass Checkers..Kristen realizes that she doesn't have her keys.
Back to OP we go.
FINALLY we make it to Rachels [after a few almost-wrong turns].
We get back at 11.
I get to see Jeremy for only a few minutes before I come home.
Today was eventful though.
( Peektures )
- Mood:bouncy
- Music:comedy central's on
