I'm taking Tamiflu because I got the flu. Well, the stuff makes you have stomach cramps and makes you have nightmares and can even make you have like fits of uncontrolled anger. The ONLY reason I'm still taking it is because I want to feel better for Tuesday. That's when we leave for New Orleans :]. But yeh--that Tamiflu crap--man, I'm not too sure about it. Eh.
Saturday night my mom called me at work and told me that my dad's dad (well, my stepdad) had clasped while visiting family in Florida and that they thought he had had a stroke. Well, about an hour later, my dad calls me and tells me he's on his way to Florida to go meet them. He told me that it wasn't look too good and that they were saying if he lived he would be paralyzed on the right side and wouldn't be able to talk. Saturday morning my dad called me to tell me that he had died and he started to cry. It broke my heart into a billion pieces. My poor dad :/ But what really made me feel bad was that I didn't cry. I haven't cried. And I know it's because I wasn't close to them anymore and.. I don't know. I just feel terrible that I haven't even cried. I feel so incredibly bad for my dad. And I won't even be there for my dad for the funeral because I'll be in New Orleans. Honestly though, I don't think I could handle another funeral. Matt just died 5 months ago. When I was in the 7th grade, both of my grandfathers died. Before that my mom had a baby girl who died. I just.. man, I can't do funerals anymore. It's just too much death. Especially since sometimes I still struggle to except that Matt's dead.
Blah.
Good news: Tonight we're going eat out for Jeremy's birthday and Kasey's coming sleep over. Tomorrow Kasey, Allie and I are going shopping and I'm getting my nails done and getting Jeremy his cookie cake for his 21st birthday :] I'm so ready to give him his surprise tonigggght :]
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one of my favorite teachers died two weeks ago and i was in such a state of shock that i didn't cry right away. when i was little my friend's mom died and another one of my friend's brother died.
i guess death is just an unfortunate part of life.
the party sounds fun. i hope you get a chance to chill there!
and i know what you mean about the medication making you sicker. when i was sick, my medicine upset my stomach soo much and i thought i was going to puke like all the time so i never wanted to take it.
I hope you have fun in New Orleans =D
I'm so jealous!